I can't tell a recent story, but I can tell an old story. To old.
I will skip to the main point, the story is long and interesting. Eventually I will tell most of it, but for now I will tell part.
During the divorce, my children's great grandmother died. His grandmother.... Out of respect for his absolute power, I had no intentions of going.
Even in the divorce I struggled to stand up to him. Not following his every whim as I had for years, was like keeping my hand on a burner.
Well the night before the funeral I happened to speak to a new friend, who's mother attended "the funeral" in the same circumstances. She told me how proud she was of her mother.
Out of the blue I had the sudden feeling that I had to go. Little did I know it was the main reason I was to be in Idaho. (good detailed story omitted for times sake)
I realized that it was wrong to obey his every whim.
I was terrified but I did it. Choosing to do something that I believed was right, was an important step in truly "divorcing" him.
After I went, I was glad, his family was kind to me and several members said they were glad I was there.
He was angry when he saw me there. He came out of the funeral and screamed at me because I came. I just said, "It's not your decision.'
I think that was the big part. It was important for me to learn to make my own decisions that I believed were right and not continue to follow him as my "husband".
Later that night, when I was alone at my home, he came to the home to pick up our youngest child.
In the doorway, he screamed at me for a while, and I just said, "It's not your decision."
He bounced my head off the wall in the doorway. I don't remember if my baby was in my arms or his at the time. (funny how your brain has a hard time recording events when its sloshing in your noggin.)
The neighbors called the police, despite the fact I told them to call the Relief Society President instead. Yes funny story, sick funny brain I had at the time.
But the point was, I defied his absolute power and he bounced my head off the wall.
I will tell the whole story, but for now, I have to get going to take care of other responsibilities I have right now. Anyway, one of my thoughts for the night.
I will skip to the main point, the story is long and interesting. Eventually I will tell most of it, but for now I will tell part.
During the divorce, my children's great grandmother died. His grandmother.... Out of respect for his absolute power, I had no intentions of going.
Even in the divorce I struggled to stand up to him. Not following his every whim as I had for years, was like keeping my hand on a burner.
Well the night before the funeral I happened to speak to a new friend, who's mother attended "the funeral" in the same circumstances. She told me how proud she was of her mother.
Out of the blue I had the sudden feeling that I had to go. Little did I know it was the main reason I was to be in Idaho. (good detailed story omitted for times sake)
I realized that it was wrong to obey his every whim.
I was terrified but I did it. Choosing to do something that I believed was right, was an important step in truly "divorcing" him.
After I went, I was glad, his family was kind to me and several members said they were glad I was there.
He was angry when he saw me there. He came out of the funeral and screamed at me because I came. I just said, "It's not your decision.'
I think that was the big part. It was important for me to learn to make my own decisions that I believed were right and not continue to follow him as my "husband".
Later that night, when I was alone at my home, he came to the home to pick up our youngest child.
In the doorway, he screamed at me for a while, and I just said, "It's not your decision."
He bounced my head off the wall in the doorway. I don't remember if my baby was in my arms or his at the time. (funny how your brain has a hard time recording events when its sloshing in your noggin.)
The neighbors called the police, despite the fact I told them to call the Relief Society President instead. Yes funny story, sick funny brain I had at the time.
But the point was, I defied his absolute power and he bounced my head off the wall.
I will tell the whole story, but for now, I have to get going to take care of other responsibilities I have right now. Anyway, one of my thoughts for the night.
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